HAPPY BIRTHDAY :)

sis, i might not online on this special day, so i prepared for that. im gonna wish you "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" in advance cuz i might be late to wish you. so i dont want that to be happen. i love you, i wish for your success. i hope that all your wishes gonna come true and you will be happy for that. i wish that you gonna achieve what you want in this life. dont be afraid to try new things and strive for your own success and your own benefits :) i love you and will always love. eventho i havent meet you in  person but i love :) i really hope that one day, we will meet each other and talk a lot bout kpop and our personal stuff. i really enjoy being friEnd with you. you are such a good friend, good listener and a good sister to me. i really appreciate that. i pray for your happiness. may this weird relationship last forever and will not wilted :) i love you :)

A BIRTHDAY CAKE FOR MY LOVELY SIS :)

SWEET 20 SIS :)

ENJOY  YOUR GLAMOROUS AND VICTORIOUS YEAR :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, ABNERYS DIAZ :)

I LOVE YOU :)

ABNERYS DIAZ :)

who is she ? you guys must be wondered right who is the lovely girl that im gonna share. well, her name is abnerys diaz. she will turn 20 on July 29 this year. she is my pen-pal in puerto rico. i know her first when we become friends in myspace back in early 2010. we have a lots of comfortable conversations. i feel the chemistry exists between us. whats make us become friends is both of have the same interest which both of us fonds over kpop. wahhh, we shared a lot of beautiful things about kpop. i often introduce to her kpop groups and fortunately she love all my suggestions. and from that our friendship grows. we talk to each other when both of us online. well, i have some of foreign friends but she is the closest one. i talk to her alot rather than others because i find out the cozy feelings when i talk to her. she is a easy-going person and such kind-hearted person. she just like my own sister and we treat each other like the real siblings. back in 2010 i often called her kak ngah because she is the second child in her family. i really love the moments when we talk for the whole day. the time diffrence between us is 12hours. if i online here at 12pm, at there puerrto rico it is 12am. she also feel comfortable to talk about anything to me. she also told me about her relationship with her boyfriend. and also her first kiss! awwww!!!

isnt she beautiful ? she is such a great person.she concerned about me a lot and thats make me love her more eventhough we never meet in person. back in 2010 i cant contact with her for the whole year becuse i need to further studies and there is no internet access to able me online forever and talk to her. and thats how we lost contact. after sometimes finally i manage to check on my myspace account but at that time myspace was to way updated and i couldnt get myself used to it current system yet and she also did not online for the time im waiting for her to reply my messages on her myspace inbox. i even leave message on her YM but yet no repy. that was totally frustrating situation to me because i have alot to share with her. i also tried to search her name, abnerys diaz in facebook but nowhere to be found. so i just left that to the destiny. HAHA. thats sound cliche. HAHA. later on i managed to get her facebook account through my friend which he also friend with her. YEAYYY!!! finally i get to contact her, i add her right away. HAHA.

she told me before that she was in culinary & pastry studies. basically she has completed her studies and also her internship. she did mention about her moving to usa. i dont know when but she gonna live there by her own. wahh, such a independent girl. i respect her LOL. now, i havent hear news about that because she din mention to me any further details. we always comfort each other feelings. and if we had any argument about kpop things, we are free to tell each other. talk about kpop drama, new kpop songs, new variety shows. thats makes us close than before. untill now, we still being a cool friends towards each other. it is a coolest thing to have a friend like her. i really hope we can maintain this kind of relationship. dont ever forget me sis^^
 i miss you and much love for you sis <3

We used to talk everyday, now its like we don't even know each other anymore

Itu yang aku rasa sekarang. Hidup ni tak selalunya indah dan tak selalunya menjanjikan kebahagiaan. Aku minta maaf sangat pada kawan2 aku. Bukan niat aku nak jauhkan diri atau apa. Aku minta maaf sangat sebab tak jawab call, tak balas msg2 semua tu. Aku bukan sengaja tapi tak tau kenapa aku dah jadi tawar hati nak pegang hp tu. Aku nampak msg2 korg, tapi hati aku rasa lain. Aku baca msg korg tapi tak tahu kenapa aku seakan taleh nak balas msg korg. Aku sendiri pun tak tahu kenapa. tolong jangan salahkan aku. Ada orang tinggalkan msg kat inbox fb aku tanya kenapa buat macam ni, kenapa sombong sangat ? Ingat diri tu popular sangat ke sampai ada hati nak hiraukan orang lain ? Mungkin dia dah marah sangat kot pada aku. Aku tak salahkan dia pun sebab aku tahu yang bersalah hanya aku sorang je. Aku faham perasaan korang dan aku harap sangat korang faham perasaan aku gak. Mungkin ada sebab aku jadi camni tapi aku rasa bengang kenapa aku jadi camni. Korang mesti rasa aku ni tak betul kan ? Dulu aku pernah rasa apa yang korang rasa. Kawan baik aku buat camni gak kat aku. Aku rasa diri aku teruk sangat. Tapi korang jangan fikir apa yang aku buat sekarang ni sebab nak balas dendam ke apa. bukan sama sekali. Benda yang lepas tu tak ada kaitan pun dengan sekarang. Totally tak ada. Aku kena amik masa. harap korang faham sangat. Cuti ni aku banyak mendiamkan diri. kena amik masa untuk betulkan otak aku yang dah tak berfungsi ni. harap sangat korang faham. Mungkin lepas ni korang dah takkan rasa camtu lagi dah, aku akan betulkan diri aku. Dari hati yang tulus ikhlas aku mohon keampunan dari korang semua^^

MAAF NADIA DANIAL :(

yaya :)

NADIA DANIAL, maafkan saya sebab tak ada bila awak perlukan saya. bukan saya sengaja buat camtu tapi ada yang tak kena pada diri saya ni. harap awak maafkan saya. kita kawan kan ?

I LOVE MY FRIENDS (CHINGGU) :)

FORM 5 BATCH 2009 :)

Erm, i hate haters. HAHA. lets say if i would have magic right now. what would i do?. erm, definitely i want the magic gathers all of my chinggu. i really miss them. jeongmal. i will never asked anything else than this one wish.chinggu-ahh, i really miss all of you. no matter chinggu from primary till secondary scholl and up to my college friends, i really miss them. ottokae?. if only the magic occurs. and of course that is impossible. but whta to do, i've already dreamt about it. HAIZ. i've gone through so so so many obstacles in order just to protect the relationships. i've often hurt, but i don't really mind about it. because thats normal, everyone has done through the same things. and even chinggu stabbed behind my back. i pissed off. this is too much for me, i cried. why would chinggu betrayed me?. but then i realize something, is it because of me?. chinggu did such thing is it beacuse of me?. did i done wrong ? or is it i annoyed my chinggu?

FRIENDSHIP BETWEEN DPI1B :)

 i really can't figured it out. but no matter what, i can't blame my chinggu. maybe i've done worse. so let chinggu be that way. let chinggu live the way they want it. if chinggu have done well, then wahhh~ i'm happy too. i admit that i not a perfect person and yet i'm not a perfectionist. i will always be satisfied of who my chinggu are. i will never make them change just the way they are, i would be pleased if they maintain the way did it before. why would i change them? but if its for a better reasons, i think theres nothing wrong with it, i think i should. am i right, chinggu?. 

THIS IS THE FAMILY OF DPI :)

i'm kinda look harsh on the physical look, but who will never guess the little heart that i own. even with the small things, i would be touched. sometimes chinggu make me feel offended. and sometimes i did sulk just to show that i protest of what chinggu did to me. but how unlucky i am. no one turned up to coax me. HAHA. but i don't mind laa. people may took easy on me, but watch haa, don't mess up with me.

5 DAHLIA SUPERB LOLS :)

thinking back, i've cried a lot for chinggu. chinggu hurts me, chinggu do something that offends me, chinggu being mean to me, chinggu abandoned me, and even dumped for me. for the moment, my heart would torn apart but time flies, my wound heals. new chinggu appears. HAHA, if chinggu were not happy with the style or the way i treated them, mianhae. jeongmal mianata. i am really really sorry. :(

chinggu-ahh,

SORRY,

for every words that hurts you,

for every actions that annoyed you,

for every jokes that irritaed you,

for every moves that upset you,

for every conversations that bored you,

for every lies that i've been told you,

i've never mean that way,

it was my mistakes for hurting you,

i've tried to be flawless

i've tried my best to make you happy,

i've tried harder just to to let you down,

i've gave my all just to make you smile,

but what no matter what i did,

you'll never look at me,

i know that you hate me,

you were not happy with this relationship,

but, i will always love you, chinggu :)

for everythings that i've done to you,

I AM SORRY :(

A3-3 AWESOMEST BUDDIES :)

RESULT SEMESTER 2 SESI DISEMBER 2010

fuhh, apa nak buat ni ? result dalam beberapa jam lagi je nak kuar. erm, aku harap aku dapat result yang bagus. tapi berdasarkan prestasi aku time jawab exam tu cam tade harapan je. aku amik 4 paper. paper macroeconomics, commercial law, business mathematics, dengan business management. aku paling tak confident paper macroeconomics laa. adoyy, memang taleh buat paper tu. tapi aku betul-betul harap aku tak carry paper tu. erm, harap-harap carrymarks aku cukup untuk lulus subjek tu. semester 2 ni aku tak harap apa-apa pun. expectation aku sama je time aku semester 1. aku tak harap sku dapat AKJ (anugerah ketua jabatan), aku just harap aku lulus je. time aku semester 1 alhamdulillah aku dapat AKJ, pointer aku 3.52. aku rasa pointer aku cukup-cukup makan je. nyaris-nyaris je aku dapat pointer untuk melayakkan aku dapat anugerah tu. dah nasib aku, aku terima je sebab aku sebenarnya tak pandai mana pun macam yang semua orang nampak. orang expect aku pandai sebab aku dapat AKJ. tapi semua tu salah lah. aku tak pandai. dan aku tau kalau saku tak dapat AKJ untuk semester 2 ni, mesti orang akan cakap yang bukan2 pasal aku. aku tak kisah lah, sebab aku lagi tau sape diri aku yang sebenarnya. aku yang belajar, aku yang tau situasi tu sebenarnya. aku tak kisah lah sekarang ni tapi kalau aku carry subjek tu yang aku kisah. aku tak kisah langsung kalau aku tak dapat AKJ pun. kalau aku carry, aku tatau nak cakap macammana kat parents aku. susahlah camtu. pening ni. YA ALLAH, harap-harap aku dapat result yang elok dan aku lulus semua paper. AMIN~

semoga doa aku diperkenankan oleh ALLAH. AMIN ~

MY FIRST EVER BLOG :)

Erm, what I’m gonna say?. Let see, erm. Oh yeahh!. This is my first time of writing in a blog. I’ve never write in a blog. Well, actually I do write in live journal. HAHA. But its not too long because I’ve just started writing online. I do love writing but it is just I don’t really have the time to do this such kind of thing like thinking and writing a bunch of good words. HAHA. It is because I’m studying and I can’t manage my own sweet time to start writing. Erm, actually I’ve been arguing about this with my father because he kind not agree with me always surfing internet and just looking at the screen all the time. He said whats the use of looking at the singers or actors. HAHA. Because I’m a kpop freak. I can’t stop following the current news about kpop world. I love kpop stuff so much. And now, witout further delay I’m posting my first entry. HAHA. It is not I don’t to make a blog, but seriously guys I don’t have the time. HAHA. Actually I’m really good in writing. I can plotting a good story. usually i'm writing in my school scrapbook. after finishing the whole interesting story i would give my friends and also my cousin to read and happily to receive comment from them. i love novels a lot. HAHA. me , myself are also a kpop freak. there are some bias in kpop artist. HAHA. lets talk later about the kpop stuff. but for now, here it is my first blog entry. happy reading and i will came out with more ideas and more good story to tell.